10.30.03
Posted in miscellaneous stuff at 3:02 am by admin
yesterday was the first day of my commute home in the dark. when the fall comes and the time changes and i leave work in the dark it makes me feel like my entire day has been wasted — like the sun has gone down on my life and now i’m limited to only doing the things that people do in the dark — sleeping, watching television, etc. the cold dark always represents a rough patch for me every year because it takes some getting used to. once october is over and november comes, the holiday season makes up for the darkness because the lights that adorn people’s houses help to brighten the bleak fall just enough to make it tolerable. it’s funny, because at this time of year there are also certain musical selections that i like to listen to. one of my favorites for this season is depeche mode’s violator album. the two most fitting songs are “halo” and “waiting for the night to fall”. the latter is particularly amazing because it has such compelling deep electronic tones that repeat throughout the song, and a tiny bridge that appears every one in awhile where those tones become “sparkly” and the tone of the song changes. listen and you’ll know what i mean. another good dark album is nightlife by the pet shop boys, with the exception of “new york city boy”, which is a bit too happy for a dark frozen night, unless you warm it with kahlua or a caramel apple martini. i know no one will go and listen to these songs just from reading my journal entry, but still it would be most worthwhile, i promise.
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10.21.03
Posted in miscellaneous stuff at 2:27 am by admin
this past weekend began the series of fall activities that i have participated in every year since meeting mark. they’re always a lot of fun — and we did something new this weekend. we went on a “haunted tour” of eastern state penitentiary in philadelphia on saturday night for “terror behind the walls”. while the whole thing was very interesting, it was a little disturbing as well. this penitentiary with high stone walls was in operation from 1829 to 1971 and housed some famous prisoners like Al Capone. for halloween, they create a series of “haunted house” walkthroughs with people in gory makeup jumping out at you, and a “mess hall” with plastic severed legs, etc. as fun and scary as it was, it makes me wonder if it’s a bit disrespectful to turn an old prison into a “house of fun” when thousands of people, both hardened criminals and the innocent, were tortured there for over one hundred years. in 1842 Charles Dickens visited this prison and another in niagara falls and said, “The System is rigid, strict and hopeless solitary confinement, and I believe it, in its effects, to be cruel and wrong….”. therefore it seems wrong to me to trivialize it. however, i will probably go back for the real tour of the site, because it’s fascinating and will be even moreso without the severed heads.
we (mark, siobhan, ami, and myself) stayed in conshohocken, pa, right outside of philadelphia on saturday night and we hung out in phildelphia for a few hours on sunday afternoon. mark was in a euphoric state because he found a muppets playset he’s been looking for for awhile (he’s now into bunsen and beaker, so this is a really big story.)
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later on sunday we went to the corn maze in new tripoli, pa, that we go to every year. this year it was cut into the shape of a scary clown. we didn’t get to spend as much time in the maze as we would have liked, but it still was a lot of fun. if you’re easily scared by “children of the corn” this is not a good place for you to go. 
it wasn’t quite as scary as normal because we didn’t go on a “haunted” night where they stick scary people and fog machines in the maze. but still, it’s worth doing. it’s the kind of thing that i never got to do in texas growing up that mark introduced me to. the fall activities here are so much better. next week we’re going on a haunted hayride which is also a lot of fun. you people need to come visit in the fall!
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10.14.03
Posted in miscellaneous stuff at 8:04 am by admin
yes, it’s true that i have owed an update for a long time.
i read your journals but i seldom reply. i’m not really sure why i’ve become such a lurker lately. i seemed to be trapped in my own world lately. i spend most of my time lashing out at those around me for no apparent reason, and ignoring those who aren’t around me.
it’s funny because i can be sitting in a perfectly happy setting with people that i really like but something stupid will irritate me and kill the mood of the situation without me even knowing let alone understanding why. i’m beginning to feel lately like i can’t be around people because if i’m around them i simply bring the situation down. i personally wouldn’t be friends with the “me” that exists today. and that’s a problem. i’ve never been this antisocial before and i’m not sure why it’s happening but it’s a problem i’m dealing with.
more eventually.
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